life goes on.

my mom told me the other day to stop stressing so much.  ha.  toni is so funny sometimes.  i asked her how i could not stress when this year has brought not one, but two failed relationships and a court case brought on by a women who kidnapped my dad and married him.  my life has quickly become a punch.line to multiple jokes that you never want to hear.  

to fill you in.  mike turned out to be manipulative, immature and verbally abusive.  so needless to say i walked away and started the longest break up in history lasting a total of 6 weeks.  it finally came to an end when he returned my spare car key, watched a movie and denying his every attempt of a kiss.  ya'll should be very proud of that fact that i stuck to my guns and finally 'kicked' him out of my house to sit on the couch alone in the darkness numb for about 20 minutes.  only to be a little bummed the next day when he didn't text me.  this love crap is a sick and twisted cycle.  i don't get it.  

anyway i'm not as bummed as this post is about to make me sound...so here are some pics to keep your attention.  thanks lovelies.

me and sadie lady at some family function this summer

zoo time for my b.day

 i was a really good shoulder ride giver

more proof of my shoulder ride skills

 we were a little too excited for the train ride at the zoo

 another random family function

 me and my lovely cousin tilly at jony's bridal shower

 me and jony at her shower...she is a gem

 da boys

 they 'helped' me clean my bathroom 

 at the centerville fireworks withe rae rae

 me and millie on the 4th of july

 don't worry she was ok...this was hilarious

 made my dad a plate of fruit

 caught the bouquet at jony's wedding

 sadie was FREAKED out for this ride...immediately after she informed me that she didn't cry

 pioneer village tour with the fam on our annual asay lagoon day

 jake was informing me on how to make coffee

 this was right after jake pushed emme out of the picture...sibling rivalry at it's best

 love these little loves

 babysitter of the year

 another zoo pic

 just discovered the most delicious cupcakes...oh and i love erika

 lots of quality time with this love

 mike tried to win me back

 emme got really comfy on our 3 hour drive

 flaming gorge or bust

 all ready for an adventure

 nature walk time

 still don't know what these are or why they are in the middle of nowhere

 homeward bound

 again babysitter of the year

 love these kids

 this guy was so hot to me.  any man who can rock this at church is a win in my book

 gas station run with my favorite 11 year old

 jack was soooo over picture time

 story time in mom and dad's bed

 so many things were funny about this.  jane is her own person and i love it

 max was thrilled to be in his bumbo

 we are the hottest nerds you will ever meet

date night by myself.  not as depressing as you would think. 

so as you can see my summer was amazing.  seriously it was fantastic.  even though mike and i broke up, we still had loads of fun together and fell in love for 2.5 seconds.  i also learned that there is still a lot of things that i need to work out in my own life before i try to take on someone else's life too.  i mean how am i supposed to care for someone else emotionally when i can't even begin to take care of myself emotionally at times?  again i'm not as bummed as this is making me sound.  i blame it on the willie nelson i am listening to right now.  the point is this.  i am a perfectly normal and sane human being who has feelings too.  feelings that i'm not as afraid to share as i used to be.  and i think that's a really good thing.  so sorry this is a long post and i am going to try to get back on track and not forget about my blog.  first order is clean my room, start running again, throw out some old clothes and shoes and pick up my heart.  i think it's buried under the mess on my floor.  ha ha, i kid, i kid.  i'm happy.  damn willie nelson and his contemplative mood control!  good night gems.