let's hope negative shall we

i was thinking today...is it awkward for everyone involved if you mention a get together to someone as if you already invited them, but really hadn't. that has to be a little awkward for the inviter and a little awkward for the invitee too. not that it really matters in the long run...it is just a little funny and a little awkward all at the same time. just a thought

and i have learned this week that patience sucks and i have little to none at all! sometimes that anticipation of something kills me and i just want things to happen now and not wait! wait it out people will say, but you know what...that is is like saying to a junkie 'just quit cold turkey...you can do it!' yeah right is what i say to you happy and optimistic people.

best part of anything lately was my easter present from my mom! the book entitled you can heal your life! i can't remember who wrote it, cause quite frankly i didn't look.slash.care...anyway she believes that we cause every illness that we encounter in your lives. she says that our thoughts bring disease and illness to ourselves. sort of a little bit like the secret but sugar coated and bright hearts on the cover. so...she says that having thoughts like i have a fear of growing up brought on my dad's muscular dystrophy...and his 3 brothers too i guess. nothing to do with a genetic mutation of which i am a carrier. or that leukemia is brought to you by having a thinking of what's the point....or the cataracts my brother was born with was from all his thoughts in the womb of the world being a dark place...crazy to finally figure out what causes so many things in the world...so if you have any medical questions...let me know and i can reference my book to give you a new thought process!